Welcome to my house

    这次我会不会失败呢？我心里似乎已经有答案了，只是结果还出来，我不想这么早早地否定，不要这么悲观。自从进入学校以来，基本上都是一帆风顺的。从考场里走出来，我觉得是不太好的。但是我学会放下，等待结果。我在找着当年高考的感觉，看看是否有类似的感觉出现，对比考四级，上次竞赛后的情绪，以便判断我这次考试的结果。记得高考答案一出来，妈妈就拿着扬子晚报叫我对答案，我十分不情愿，但是很想知道自己的答案是否正确，于是就拿着报纸回想着自己在考场里做的结果，估分下来还不错，上个本二应该够了。这次没有妈妈在身边，我已经没有勇气对答案了，我在想：死也要死个痛快，结果还那样？还有几天结果就要出来了，我既希望结果快出来，又不希望，一来知道后，我可以打算下面我该怎么做，二来还想过几天逍遥快活日子。我并不后悔我做的事，虽然我没有周围的人努力，甚至及不上她们的三分之一，可是不会后悔，因为我再怎么努力，我的水平还是那样。偶尔的复习一下书效果比起整天在图书馆看书效果更好。方法因人而异，读了这么多年的书，相信自己不会错的。"All Roads lead to Rome."即使这次是个失败，我还有很多路可以走，只是走的不是很顺罢了。我已经做好面临结果的准备了。

  Tomorrow is Tomb-sweeping Day; I should have had a 3-day vacation, but I must attend a training course instead. Most students have gone home since last week. There were only several classmates left to attend classes. There were three people in class the day before yesterday so the teacher didn’t hold a class for us. At that time, I felt wistful because of fewer people, less energetic class and lazier students. I always told myself that I was a student so that I must do what a student should do. Basically, I should attend classes on time without slipping unless I have some special matters such as going back home and taking an examination.

  I want to say some people about what they did. In order to prepare the coming examination which is very important for them, they didn’t attend class but read educational books upon exams in the library. I don’t think what they did is right and smart. If you pass the exam, I am convinced that you may succeed, but don’t you think you lose something? On the contrast, if you don’t, don’t you think you get nothing? I am also going to attend that so-called very significant examination which I have spent 1year preparing for, but I am different from them. I want to not only get great results but also obtain what I should master. Is there really no need to have a class? At least, you can get something you don’t know more or less. Remember that knowledge is an endless supply.

我真的没有兴趣，没有兴趣当。。。我不想处理那些事，一点点都不想，可是职责告诉我必须这样做，我一点也不想，一点也不想。我已厌倦，已厌倦。为什么我的人生不能自己把握，为什么我不能做自己喜欢的事，我恨，我恨。

自从这学期来后，我明显忙了好多，作为系里的作为学生会主席，要忙的事很多，以前总以为做领导是件很舒服的事，孰不知其实很不好，要担心的事很多。很多事要做决定，一个团体好不好，领导的力量也是关键。这让我有点惶恐，万一有哪点事做不好，就是我的失职吧。这让我想到公司的老板，人家都说老板多好啊，其实他们是最痛苦，也是最忙的。除非这个公司不创新，一直保持原样，这样老板就不用头疼，不用创新。不过，这个公司迟早要被淘汰的。
自从来了个张主任，我的事就更多了。有时让我烦恼，让我很忙。我的身体状况有一阶段不是很好。劳累程度就像高中一样。特别是EVE不在的那段时间，我很累很累。现在我要放松，把事做好。风采之星大赛，圣诞晚会，可能还有拉链活动。。。